let it all out, let it go

Welcome to my blog. I am autistic and have sensory and auditory processing disorders. I also identify as aromantic asexual (or aro ace for short).

My ask is always open whether you follow me or not (you can be anonymous too if you want)

My main (fandom based) blog is hinata42691. So if you get a follow from there it's still me, I just can't follow people from rinsadreamer...

~ Rin

Sep 24

shippingtronnor:

isafeye:

Everyone who suffers from social anxiety needs a friend who will

  1. help them order food when it’s too scary
  2. walk with them through crowded places
  3. help them laugh it off when they make a mistake
  4. not get tired of answering “no, you’re not annoying, silly goose! You’re adorable and I love you” no matter how many times it’s needed

and if you’re that friend, bless u for being fab <3

this is too accurate 

(via thealchemicfox)


vouguez:

THANKS TO THE PERSON WHO MADE THIS

vouguez:

THANKS TO THE PERSON WHO MADE THIS

(via rotg-lovah)


i’m almost 23 and a half. i’m technically an adult and therefore have adult responsibilities. 

however, i feel like i’m still somewhere in middle or high school age-wise. 

yes, i have lots of knowledge i didn’t have then. but there’s still so much that everyone else my age (or younger) seems to have picked up naturally and that i haven’t, leaving me behind in the dust 

only to get looked down on or scolded for not keeping up

how am i supposed to keep up when it takes me so much longer? i can’t get ahead enough to catch up and so i only end up falling further and further behind… 

i often wish i could return to being a child so that people wouldn’t decide i was stupid or say that i’m not trying

i’m pretty sure i’ve been in a period of autistic burnout since i started college (or at least in the past 2 years)… i just want to feel like i can cope again and not constantly feel incompetent and stupid and slow… 


feeling frustrated with myself and upset 

i know i struggle with some general knowledge things: things i should know and have likely learned but can’t seem to recall when needed 

much of that is probably due to poor working memory or it not falling in a area of interest and thus getting thrown out 

i know it’s no excuse. i really should know these things… but i’m not sure how to remember it all 

it makes me feel like i’m a dumb child who doesn’t understand anything or just a child who doesn’t yet have interest in the adult world and thus does not pay attention to or understand how it works (but unlike a child, i’m expected to pay attention and understand - which is something i still struggle with)

i feel stupid and end up getting mad at myself for not remembering but it’s not like that helps 

and then today i was sitting with 2 of my roommates and mai asked what the difference between “prison” and “jail” was. i understand what both are but i never really understood the difference, so i was unable to explain… then yuko said “rin, you’re not dumb, but… this really is supposed to be common knowledge…” and then went on to explain it to mai. 

and now i just feel really upset… i’ve always been very sensitive about this specifically because people tend to get frustrated with me just like that… and i know it’s supposed to be common knowledge but that doesn’t mean i pick these things up as naturally as others… 

i’m sorry… 

maybe i really am just stupid… 


Sep 23
  • me: -bounces leg-
  • classmate: did you know when you bounce your leg like that, it means your anxious or something
  • me: yeah?
  • classmate: you're like always boucing your leg
  • me: im literally always anxious

Sep 22




mommashaus:

Ever since I saw Arthur’s explanation to kids about what someone with Aspergers Syndrome experiences, I’ve been inspired to illustrate what I see when working with children who have learning differences (I prefer not to call them disabilities).

mommashaus:

Ever since I saw Arthur’s explanation to kids about what someone with Aspergers Syndrome experiences, I’ve been inspired to illustrate what I see when working with children who have learning differences (I prefer not to call them disabilities).


“I’ve been pretending for so long, I’ve forgotten who I truly am.” (via artmusicfun)


iamautistic:

Sometimes I touch blankets/pillows/jackets etc. in shops and then I get surprised when it’s really soft and nice so then I just kinda of want to…


Anonymous said: i volunteer a lego piece as the new symbol for autism. theyre not a piece missing from something, theyre just incredibly great and you can build a lot of things with them-- in fact, the more lego pieces you have, the better. unlike a puzzle piece, you dont need to "solve" legos. they come in thousands of different shapes and colors. and if you step on one, you will regret it. also legos are cool.

whatareautisticsplanning:

this is one of the most amazing asks i’ve ever received

in fact i was planning on drawing something for this but then i realized i can’t draw



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