let it all out, let it go

Welcome to my blog. I am autistic and have sensory and auditory processing disorders. I also identify as aromantic asexual (or aro ace for short).

My ask is always open whether you follow me or not (you can be anonymous too if you want)

My main (fandom based) blog is hinata42691. So if you get a follow from there it's still me, I just can't follow people from rinsadreamer...

~ Rin

Oct 20


Friend has the sad???!!??!!!!!


I’m coming friend I’ll save you from the sad!!


I am here now you’re going to be okay!!!


You are so beautiful and i love you!!!


(via perksofbeingace)


Please reblog this if you are asexual/aromantic. I swear I’m not the only who is, I feel like it though. 

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Oct 19

one thing i’m still struggling with recently is allowing myself to stim
i feel like i’ve tried so hard for years to suppress it that when it starts and i notice that i’m doing i end up doing essentially “quiet hands”
then when i try to allow myself to keep stimming instead it just ends up feeling forced because i’m fighting two urges: the need to stim and “quiet hands”
and then even if i manage to keep stimming it just feels fake and i end up get frustrated at myself for it
i’m trying to be better about being kind to myself and taking this slowly, but it’s hard to convince myself that it’s really okay to stim… 

anyone else dealing with this? any suggestions?… 


is it An Autistic Thing to pick up other ppl’s style of typing???

like I am verbally echolalic but ive noticed I tend to type like other bloggers that I follow intensively or adopt their tagging style

i haven’t noticed it too much with blogging, but i have noticed that when i do a lot of reading i tend to type or mentally monologue like the author’s writing style - does that sound similar? 

(via violetautistic-deactivated20141)


"vaccines cause autism!"



There’s this thing of how my realization of being autistic allows me to know how to go easier on myself: to be more cautious with sensory stimuli, to plan out social interactions more carefully, etc. It’s like I actually know what self care is now.

Dear Neurotypicals


so i was just having this conversation in class, and i just wanna make something clear for people.

When it comes to my disability (And probably other people’s too), my “Lack of Empathy” isn’t


It’s more like


It’s not that I don’t care, it’s that i have absolutely no idea what to do. 


never apologize for your mental things. never apologize for needing attention, or stimming, or shutting down, or dissociating, or having a manic episode, or not being able to empathize with someone.

your brain is valid, and worthy of love, and you do not need to apologize for being powerful. 


sometimes I’m sitting at home and I’m like “wait why do I think I’m autistic I am definitely not autistic I’m just shy or something”

and then I go to a place with People and can’t figure out what to do or say or WHAT
or suddenly find myself rocking or flapping or stimming in any other way
or get sensorily overloaded by there being too much STUFF that I can see or a Bad Noise or just too much noise or something
or try to look people in the eye and then not be able to do anything else
or go nonverbal and have to remember how talking works
and I’m like “oh right”


Because some days I’m just a sad, shy, lethargic sloth with no backbone, but also I want to talk to someone? 

(via princeofemos)

The love I feel for people isn’t romantic, isn’t sexual, certainly isn’t mother-child love. But it’s powerful and strong and consuming. It makes me care for people, and worry about them and admire them and respect them. I’d call it platonic, but I feel like it’s more significant than that. It makes me want to hug people and be close to them and share parts of their lives. But I’ve learnt to be a bit more wary of showing that, because of the way those feelings don’t belong to the dominant paradigm of real love. Because I don’t want to send the wrong message, or lead someone on.

It’s hard sometimes, because I always feel like I’m on a different level to everyone else. I can’t lie – sometime I just wish that someone would return my feelings exactly the same way. Sometimes I find myself longing for the trappings of a traditional romantic relationship – the commitment, the affection, the cuddles, the knowledge that someone loves you and values you – but without the actual romantic part.


Society teaches us that we must take either the “whole package” or leave it completely and be alone for the rest of our lives. It doesn’t consider the fact that you can have parts of the package without wanting or needing the rest. And it doesn’t value love that falls outside the paradigm.

I think there is more to love than a couple of standard forms. There is love that is romantic, there is love that is sexual, there is love that is between parents and children, and love for or between people who are neither. I don’t feel like I can give up loving people the way I do, and I don’t want to. But thinking about real love as only coming in one or two shapes and forms , and valuing those forms over everything else is marginalising and hurtful.

I don’t doubt that there are many people who do find romantic love to be the most important thing to them, something special that nothing else can compare to. But that is not the only way of loving that there is.

Experiences of Loving (via perksofbeingace)

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“Sometimes, it’s easier to tell a stranger something very personal. It`s like there’s less risk, opening yourself up to someone who doesn’t know you.” Linwood Barclay (via hplyrikz)

(via princeofemos)

Oct 18




maybe one day someone will make a good Halloween attraction that’s safe(r) for epileptics/autistics who like scary stuff

I mean you can do scary without intense sensory experiences; a quiet, abandoned building with the occasional creepy whisper instead of blaring SFX and music, using gradual light changes rather than strobes to create a scary atmosphere, minimal smoke effects, and of course no touching but lots of good creepy imagery and costumes

it IS possible so idk why no one’s tried to do it yet

(oh and also wheelchair accessibility, though I’m finding out professional haunted houses try to have that when possible anyway)

This. I agree with all of this. I would have a much better time at those things if I was actually being scared and not being sick from the flashing lights.


You don’t owe anyone an explanation of why your identity is as it is. It is completely up to you if you want to explain it or if you don’t and how you want to if you do. Let no one tell you otherwise.

(via perksofbeingace)

Oct 16

Anonymous said: does anyone else have problems eating sweets and desserts because of how rich the flavor is? I can only eat mellow sweets because it overwhelms me really quickly even though I do enjoy the taste, so it's not something to do with flavor.

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